I noticed that this summer I haven't been writing to much. I've been pretty busy, here in NJ. Between work, starting my company and spending time with my family it's been pretty hectic. It sometimes feels like I don't have time to breath. Craziness...  

So I've been shooting for my site non stop. My site build has started and I am really excited about it. Hopefully you all will enjoy it as much as I am going to once it's complete. As well as shooting for my site I've been shooting other talent for the 6 other sites I am launching. It's really hard to get talent out here on the East Coast. But I will be in California soon and will then have a unlimited supply of talent to shoot. Then I can really get on the ball with the shooting. : )

Ok so my brother has been staying with me here in NJ as well. Originally I thought he would be able to shoot scenes and could be the main male talent on the milf site. But the first scene he tried to shoot he couldn't get his dick hard. Sucks for him. He was a little butt hurt for about 2 days. But he's better now. I told him I'd give him another shot and he can try and bang another milf. But would have to take the little blue pill. We'll see what happens. On to other things.
 
I am really starting to miss home so much it is insane. It's sucks not getting to see my friends and have them around when I need to talk to them. I have about 4 girls that are my bestest friends in the world and were all like sisters. We've been friends since we were 12 years old. We've all been through so much together. My one best friend just gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl I have ever seen. She is absolutely precious. I tell you. I can't wait to get home and see her new baby. My other best friend that is pregnant was just in the hospital for about one week. She was having complications with her pregnancy poor girl. She found out she has a thyroid problem  and could potentially not be able to have kids after her son is born. I feel really bad for her. But she is a strong woman and will get through it. I know she is going to make a wonderful mother once her son is born.

Sometimes I feel like I am going to be the last one out of my friends to get married and have kids. But we will see what the future holds for me. Right now kids are unfortunately not a option for me and my life. I need to build my empire first before I do the whole kid thing or start to even think about it. I will also need to get married first to do that. I understand people have kids everyday with out being married but that's not for me. Nor excepted in my family at all. I mean then again the whole porn career thing is not really excepted either although my parents have grown on it and completely except it now. So that's good for me.

Ummmm what else is going on in my life.... I am trying to think, I might hurt myself haha.

Alright so I started to pay off my debt with LA Direct Models, so I can be let out of my contract. Unfortunately it doesn't really seem like I am going to be let out of it. So I am contemplating when I send the rest of the money owed. Because really if I am not going to be let out of it what difference does it make whether I pay it now or later.... Honestly I just want out of it, so I can go back to the agent that started everything for me. I mean I know I fucked up with Spiegler a lot. And did not make him proud, at times. But that man was like my second father and will always hold a huge place in my heart. It brings a tear to my eye every time I think about it. Any who. That's the agent that fits me best, and I would really like to go back there. But we'll see if he even takes me back. When he represented me I was young and often got pig headed. Now I am older not by much but have learned a lot in my time away. So we will see what the future holds...